Recovery is a hard process

Morning :) Penaultement day of school and my mum is already doing my head in yey xxx

Wed, 22 May 2013 03:06:56 -0400

Morning :) Penaultement day of school and my mum is already doing my head in yey xxx

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Wed, 22 May 2013 03:05:35 -0400

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Wed, 22 May 2013 03:04:37 -0400

My mind is just all over the place…I can’t stop thinking about what I had to talk about...

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:48:11 -0400

My mind is just all over the place…I can’t stop thinking about what I had to talk about in that hour…damn it why does he do this? Screw with my mind then announce he’s off for 3 weeks so no sessions for another month…damn it xx

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Tue, 21 May 2013 15:41:23 -0400

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Tue, 21 May 2013 15:41:00 -0400

"But sticking your fingers down your throat and coughing and then going OH MY GOD EW is not bulimia...."

Tue, 21 May 2013 15:28:43 -0400

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But sticking your fingers down your throat and coughing and then going OH MY GOD EW is not bulimia. Fasting for a day and then “fainting” in the hallway is not anorexia. And “getting so desperate I seriously considered anorexia or bulimia” isn’t an eating disorder.

Bulimia is a speeding train with no brakes, bingeing and purging and bingeing and purging no matter how broke you are or how disgusting the food is or what you should be doing. It’s gorging until you can barely stand, puking until you bleed, and the city could burn to the ground and when it was over you’d still be standing in the ashes, bingeing and purging.

Anorexia is a wall of blue-gray ice, a miswired translation code that turns appetite into disgust, a terror you don’t understand, a fear so real you can see it and hear it and kiss it goodnight, an illogical logic that rewrites everything and you know you need to eat and maybe you even really want to eat but you just can’t because if you did everything would fall apart.

Desperation is digging through the garbage for nothing-something-anything to stuff in your face because you have to binge and purge right now. Desperation is standing frozen in the aisle of the grocery store for minutes/hours/years, and then buying the same calorie-free crap you always buy because you can’t eat it if it’s not safe.

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- from Felice Fawn’s facebook (via dontwanttobeanorexic)

This is very true, the grocery shop thing really hits home

(via sophie-melissa)

Therapy is so hard…after I just want to cuddle up in a ball and hide away…especially...

Tue, 21 May 2013 13:32:00 -0400

Therapy is so hard…after I just want to cuddle up in a ball and hide away…especially today’s. It was tough and I won’t talk about it but soon I shall hopefully loose myself in ballet and then come home for a snuggle:)

Love you guys xxxxxxxxxx

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Tue, 21 May 2013 13:29:47 -0400

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Tue, 21 May 2013 13:27:35 -0400

Off to see the therapist for the first time in ages..and I heard on the grape vine that he will be...

Tue, 21 May 2013 10:22:20 -0400

Off to see the therapist for the first time in ages..and I heard on the grape vine that he will be away for three weeks starting friday…woop love the dedication….awks…anyway…

I gained a teeny tiny bit which is good as I need the fuel pour mes examens ;P xxxxxxxxxxxx

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Tue, 21 May 2013 10:20:52 -0400

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Tue, 21 May 2013 03:07:26 -0400

Morning :) Another day, and it’s weigh in aaaaah…oh well we’ll see eh although I...

Tue, 21 May 2013 03:04:27 -0400

Morning :) Another day, and it’s weigh in aaaaah…oh well we’ll see eh although I am obviously nervous. Hope everyone has a lovely day xxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Mon, 20 May 2013 15:33:11 -0400

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Mon, 20 May 2013 15:12:06 -0400

Hmm...

Mon, 20 May 2013 15:08:09 -0400

…just home after seeing ‘The Great Gatsby’ at le cinema and yes it was a good film but a good representation of the book I love, not particularly. I mean yes the script is definitely to the book word by word yet there was something odd about it. The music wasn’t right for me, having rap and hip hip mixed in with the glamorous Jazz age didn’t work it felt a bit as if it was trying to appeal to younger audiences desperately yet in doing so I think the books great followers will have been lost in this adaptation.

Don’t get me wrong I liked it, but it wasn’t the way I would have done it. I am old fashioned I suppose and prefer the old film and it’s style, however there is no doubt that Leonardo diCaprio played Gatsby exactly as I imagined him yet it was a Baz Luhrmann without a doubt and I think it should be viewed on the premiss of that instead of against the book xxxx

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Mon, 20 May 2013 14:59:50 -0400

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Mon, 20 May 2013 14:57:30 -0400

Another day :)

Mon, 20 May 2013 02:58:13 -0400

Le college calls, and serious work time approaches. I might be seeing the Great Gatsby as well with my English class this afti so woop woop ;P xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx