On a positive note I have everything for prom sorted :) Yey…even though I am so apprehensive about going xx
Even though weigh in didn’t go to well and I haven’t eaten anything ‘bad’ I still feel horrendously guilty and fat and I swear to god it is driving me insane. With more exam pressure and preparation anorexia is feeding off me again and I don’t know what to do. Apart from when obviously doing work and ballet everything else is a real effort as my mind aches from the horrible thoughts I am trying to fight off every second of the day.
Why am I like this? Why can’t that part of my mind be cut out and I’d be happy as everyone and everything around me is so wonderful. What is wrong with me?xx